Saturday, July 28, 2007
yapx im back to blogspot again...
okay sorry guys make you all keep changing link?i keep closing my blog and open again. okay now i promise you all that i will never close my blog again ya?
after i close my blog at xeblog. i felt very terrible.there no way i can say out my feeling. all my feeling are kept inside mi.it made mi feel like i am being suffocated. so yapx..i decided to open my blog again.so somehow i have some place to write out my feeling?
for the past 2 days i had been staying in the hospital. when im alone in the ward.it make mi think a lot.well...of cos im happy that my friends care about mi. but...do you care?when im alone...how i wish that you are with mi...but i know it impossible...i can only dream...and lie to myself that you actually care for mi.
yesterday talk with the doctor..to let mi go home.cos staying in the hospital is really scary esp when you are alone. i dont wish to stay there anymore..as i dont wish to think of anymore.lucky he agreed however i need to keep going back to see him.well through it troublesome.but somehow i prefer to stay at home ba.
though yesterday was the last day for mi to stay in hospital...i actually cried.i cried not cos i cant bear to leave the hospital...it just that i cant control myself anymore..i cant lie to myself anymore.
you really dont care for mi at all...for who am i to you?well maybe im a bitch to you who only know how to be emo.and let my friends worry about mi.welll to be honest im really angry when you say that..as you dont understand my condition at all...the reason that i being emo for those few days...
however im sorry....to scold you that day...i dont mean to...but...i guess nothing can describe my feeling now...i dont know what to say anymore...but seriously im sorry for saying those cruel words to you....
im sorry...
with loves 12:34 PM
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